It was 1.30am when I woke up from the C-section. Hubby was by my side at the Close Monitoring Ward. I felt so relieved when he told me baby was delivered safely.
Baby was born at 12.08am on 24th Jan 2008. He only weighed 1.6kg at birth with a height of 42cm only. He was really small due to prematurity at 35weeks. He had to stay in Special Care Nursery till he reached 2kg mark before he could go home.. Despite his prematurity, he had apgar score of 9 out of 10 at birth and showed good sign of health.
I was happy that I finally delivered my baby safe and sound. Really great to realise that we were still alive with all the helps from the doctors and nurses. Happy that my baby could stop suffer from my illness.
But, sadness came to me soon after I was transfered to the normal Ward that afternoon.. Seeing other mothers carry and feeding their newborns, I missed my baby. As I had a C-section and due to my illness, I couldn't get down to bed to visit my newborn. Sad that I could only talk to my elder son through phone as he's still young, worrying he maybe vulnerable to the germs in hospital, he's not allowed to visit me at the hospital. He cried during our chat, he missed me and insisted me to go home. It made me to have feeling of guilt.
All I could do then is to pray hard that baby be alright so he could go home soon. & I could recover soon too.. I was so badly swollen after the delivery. My fingers, arms, face, legs and even toes. I could hardly bend my joints or move around. My ex colleagues and friends who came to visit me had a shock to see me in such swollen state (I was 44kg before getting pregnant, 58kg at delivery). Doctor said it would take weeks to reduce swelling..
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