The kids r 1week old!!

Taken yesterday - 1 week old.. They grew SO MUCH!!
Smallest boy
Fat boy
Sweetest girl

All I want is you

Baby, I've tried but I can't help myself
Can't disguise the way I feel inside
I'm falling so helplessly it's true, yeah
I close my eyes and believe completely
That I can feel you touching my skin so tenderly
Come morning light just the victim of fantasy

Every time I open my eyes
You just disappear you say goodbye
Baby, I'd do anything to make you mine
Oh, it's true

[Chorus]
All I want is you
(I'll give my heart and soul)
All I want is you
(I'll be there when you call)
All I wanna do
(is make love to you)
All I want is you, all I want is you

I can't sleep 'til the last star leaves the sky
With every beat of my heart
I wanna make you mine
I'm praying you feel the same way too
Tell me that you hear my call tonight

Oh you can bring this dream to life
Baby, I'd do anything to make you mine
Oh, it's true

[Chorus]
All I want is you
(I'll give my heart and soul)
All I want is you
(I'll be there when you call)
All I wanna do
(is make love to you)
All I want is you, all I want is you

All you gotta do is believe in me you'll find sanctuary
Just one chance is all I need to prove that you and I
Are for ever meart to be

(All I want is you)
(All I want is you)
(All I want is you)
(All I want is you)
All I want is you
All I wanna do is
(make love to you)
All I want is you, all I want is you

Baby, I'll give my heart and soul
(I'll give my heart and soul)
Give my heart and soul
(I'll be there when you call)
All I wanna do
(is making love to you)
Oh you know it's true
All I want is you, all I want is you

All I want is you
(I'll give my heart and soul)
All I want is you
(I'll be there when you call)
All I wanna do
(is make love to you)
All I want is you, all I want is you

Kitties 5days old

I love this photo.. Just so peaceful and lovely..

but sad tat one of the kitties went missing. When we reached home in the evening, it was gone.. So i've already moved the whole box in my kitchen.

4 Generations Family Photo

Taken during Chinese New Year at my grandma's house (Maternal). hehe.. All present except my eldest cousin brother..Kids in the house
Kieron and my youngest brother.

Milky boys

Taken last night..




Having their yummy milk before going to bed..

Looks innocent? Nah.. Just sleepy.. haha.. He fell asleep while lying on my chest after this.

Kitties 3rd day

Waking up, hungry...

Mummy is back

Searching for a comfy position to milk

In line, milking, sleepy mummy

Mischievious Kayden (Backdated)

These photos were taken days ago.. See what my cutey little boy can do when he's really up to something in his mind..
That basket he sat on --> to hold his blocks he and Kieron been playing.

Turning, turning and turning..

He went on till I shouted "Mummy, Da da" (Mummy, beat beat).

He will snatch the phone whenever it rings. "ah" instead of hello. hehe..

Terrorising my bed when Im trying to change the sheets.

Pets in e house

Maomao had another still born kitty this afternoon..Poor kitty died at birth.. SObz.. See the 4 lovely kitties? Their fat fat tummy. Full and asleep after milking..

Cold night... Fun night...

"Don't disturb me" @ Mos Burger with my brother & Hui ting.
Kayden simply ignored me when I said "Kayden, take photo"
But, Kayden was smiling widely when I said "Kayden! Mei Nv (美 女)!!" hehe...
Smiley me and lovely boys..

Eventful Saturday!!

Today is a cold cold rainy day.. & a special day in my life! hehe..

My very FIRST time to see newborn kitties!!

Maomao gave birth to a litter of 6 kitties, but 2 died at birth.. Sobz sobz..
Something I felt bad was that I didn't witness the delivery process.. Maomao came meowing outside my door after she finished giving birth.. The kitties are JUST SO CUTE! They could meow for milk. hehe..

They are about 10-12cm long. I suppose 4 babies are dark colours but cannot confirm yet cos they are still wet.

3hours later, when I went out to check on them, 3 of them were snuggling together, and 1 of them is smart, he/she went to hide under the towel for warmth. hehe..

I will take more photos of them tomorrow, when Maomao and kitties are more stable.. hehe..

Even my neighbours came out of the house to c the kitties.. They are so excited, just like me. Kayden is the most excited of all, he tried to touch the babies by squatting next to the box, and everyone went laughing. keke..

Zhen Xin Hua

Awaken in the morning, the body is stained by colours
And the colour pencil is still being held very tightly, very firmly
You remain in the middle of sunlight quietly
Looking at my smile on the drawing board
almost everyday i dream of taking a walk and chat with you
there’s a kind of happiness
I can feel it but unable to seize it
sometimes those made my mood in a mess

my chest felt obviously full of words but I don’t know how to say it
My love is so surge
I only hope that u can see it through
I like you, I want to love you, I want to tell this true words from the heart
I only have deep feelings but please accept this
I am crazy of you but I don’t have any idea
Let u see this clear feeling in my heart

I like you, I want to love you, I want to tell this true words from the heart
Maybe the road is still far but my love has already begun
Maybe I’m so stupid but I’m not lying at all
I’ll care for u forever, I promise u forever, will u let me love u?
I would like to see u noisy, accompany you to smile, please let me love you

Kayden's followup (Backdated)

Kayden went for his routine followup at hospital yesterday, for his blood..

This day, he had to do a thorough blood test. No longer a simple poke on his finger to draw a few drops of blood. But a full blood test, using a 1+"" long of needle, poking through his blood vessel. He didn't cry when the nurse drew 1 tube of blood. A brave boy.

Doctor said he is progressing well, with his development, gross motor and all. Except his blood count. It is still low, and the cell's size is smaller too.. But what causes it to be small? The 2nd part of the test will only be out today.. I hope my tears and worries I had were extras. Hope its not as serious as what the doctor had suspected -- Thalassemias.

He had grew alot as compared with his last followup 2 months ago. He's now 13month, 74cm tall and weighed 8kg. He's finally in normal kid's health chart, just that he is at the smaller end.. It's good news, he being a "dustbin" does work. hehe...

A playful day on Tuesday (Backdated)

Took the boys out to play along corridor and fun play at Vista Park in the evening.

Now, Kayden is independant. He won't want people to hold his hand. & he liked to walk everywhere he wanted to go.. But, you can scare him "into" ur designated path by saying "Kayden bye bye". keke...

Boys - A handful of joy and anger

Liping ah yi, the jumper u bought for Kayden is getting a little tight.. hehe...
Playing with bicycle lot while waiting for my dad to drive us to Kieron's school.
Liping ah yi, the thick jumper you got is the best suit to wear when it been raining like 10hours non stop. Cold~!!
Kieron playing with Shelyn's cousins when we went for bbq at her house void deck.
Funny expression? Just like little boss with a bullied brother.. keke.. Its just the timing of shooting..
The boys happily sitting on the container and with Kieron pushing Kayden around.

Deep thoughts

I got to know some things today.. Something sweet, lovely and nice...

It's a mixture of feeling, reality and fun.

I talked about it today, and came to conclusion.

Life goes on, fun continues, feelings be there, no matter it's fake or real, let it be a mystery..

Nobody is able to know what will happen in future, in next 10seconds, 10minutes.

Sometimes things may not turn out what you want.

Sometimes things may not turn out what you don't want.

Let time prove it. Let fate bring us to it. It's something I won't ask for more, I won't crave for more, I won't expect more. Been hurt before, been betrayed before, been in great disappointment before.

Yesterday and today been a thinking and talking day for me. I consoled 2 lovely people, I "counselled" them, I assured them, I gave them support.

I realised I am deceiving others, deceiving myself.. I can say logics to others but not to myself.. I don't have the faith, I don't have the strength, I don't have the confidence..

Pray for me.. Someday, it will come to me. I believe I deserve more. I hope I won't let people who care about me upset.

Someone give me a tight hug please.. I need it.. It's been a long long long time...

My girls

These cuties are only a couple weeks old, they are from the same parents. 2 greys 2 beige. They have another 2 brothers. My brother is taking of the parents and brothers..

Aren't they cute..? They like to squeeze either in the smalll wooden hut I gave them or on the wheel.. & they are so cute that you can see either one of them ending up dropping from the wheel while sleeping..


In middle of nights, you can hear them fighting cos of snatching good ideal place for sleep. hehe.. They are tamed by me.. How..? By showering them with love.. I will carry them out to pat pat while it's feeding time..