Kieron @ School

Today is Monday. Kieron woke up earlier than usual and went to watch Ben10 on Cartoon Network himself after failed at pestering me to wake up and accompany him. Hehe...

He's getting more independant now. He's able to wear socks, t-shirts and shorts by himself and with shoes on the correct foot.

Today, I went shopping at CWP during the 2hr waiting period with Kayden only.. It's
really a peaceful, relaxing moment. Without Kieron running around, I don't have to shout like an auntie, don't have to be a spiderwoman carrying things and holding him at the same time. But, think I'm getting weaker. For just 1.5hrs of walking non stop with baby sleeping inside the sarong, my back ACHED so much... Haiz...

After reaching home, couldn't rest much too. Cooked chicken mee sua soup for Kieron and hubby who's off for work today. Right after that, baby woke up, full alert.. I'm even breastfeeding and typing this with my right hand at the same time... Time isn't enough, have to cook dinner soon too... Sobz.. I WISH FOR A BREAK! EVEN if it's just 3hrs, but complete quiet 3hrs.. HOWEVER, it's impossible. hahaha.. Just daydreaming.. I'm trying hard not to doze off now..

Kayden is finally more alert and keen in playing now.. Because premature baby tends to sleep alot and will respond lesser compared to normal babies for the 1st few months..

It's a Fun Weekend!

On Saturday, Kieron spent most of his time playing with Kayden. To let Kayden becomes closer with Kieron, I carried him with me while accompanying Kieron during his playtime.


It seems they had fun! Kayden was aware of his brother's presence, whenever Kieron talked to him, Kayden would turn his head towards him.


It had been bad weather almost everyday during this week. It's soooo hot in the morning and noon, but with sudden heavy downpour in the evening.. Sianx.. To relieve the heat, ICE CREAM! keke..


On Sunday, I was sooo tired.. Much tired than usual day. I thought I could sleep after Kayden's usual last feed time at 2am.. I'm wrong this time.. Kayden woke up at 3am in the morning to play. He was smiling all the way, babbling.. Slept too much
since Saturday's evening till Sunday Morning. I was already dozing off when he's still kicking and moving non stop beside me.. Only till 5.30am, then he finally had signs of tireness.. Yeah!! But, by the time he finished his milk and fell to sleep. Just when it's time for me to catch some good sleep, my dear Kieron woke up at 8.30am.

Sobz...


Went Ichiban Sushi again in the late afternoon, but this time with my mum and youngest brother, Seng. I just love their Crispy Lobster salad roll.. Yum yum.. & Cheese Delight recommended by brother, Xiang too.. After that, Dad brought us to CCK stadium's restaurant.. The food was quite pleasant. Not that expensive too, affordable and comparable as normal coffeeshop "zhu chao" stalls. Just $88 for 6dishes, had Drunken Prawns, Crispy Roasted Chicken, Fried Soft Shell Crabs with coconut sauce, Four Seasons Vege, Szechuan Sour Spicy Soup and Nyonya Fish fillets. The ingredients used were really fresh. Too bad, it was raining. So we went straight home after the dinner...

My Laughing Buddha.. It's rather rare to see him laughing and smiling.. He's so much quieter compared to his elder brother...

Kayden's pretty awake today, he been alert since we went out at 3pm till night 10.30pm.. Hopefully he will sleep throughout till next morning. Haha..

Kieron is back to school

It's his very first time to wake up early in the morning urging me to be fast to bring him to school, after his 2 days of MC at home. He missed school and his bunch of good friends.

We got early to his school and he was so excited. He kept asking why his friends hadn't reach... Just when this little gal came. He shouted, "Ayanthi come le". He tried to attract her attention by playin psp in front of her. & He suceeded..


As usual, we went up to my mum place for a rest while waiting for Kieron to get off school at 1pm. During this 2hrs of waiting, Shi Xiang carried Kayden and played for awhile. Kayden laughed back to him and tried to communicate with his uncle Xiang. I'm so happy that he finally had some smiles.. Most of the time, he liked to frown at me though he loves sticking around with me...

Poo Poo trilogy..
In case, you can't see the words.
Picture from right -- Oh, tummy doesn't feel good...
Picture in center -- It's coming. Feel so uneasy..Mmmm
Picture at left -- Think it's out. My poo poo...

Today, some of the parents of Kieron's schoolmates came to play with Kayden. Because most of the time when we reached there, baby be sleeping.. But today, he's awake and looking around.. They commented that he doesn't look like a premature baby. & he looks solid with solid cheeks and solid limbs, they said some babies look chubby but with soft cheeks, kinda fake. Really happy to hear these compliments, that showed Kayden did grow.. Upon his prematurity, I'm so worried he had problem during his growing stage compared to normal full term babies. But think I'm wrong, maybe it's really destined he just have to come out earlier but with good health..


Today, hubby was off from work, so he's around to mess up with Kieron who's always so active at home.. & they always like to argue and have rough fights on bed..

Kieron tried to "silence" his dad.. When his dad answered every of his qs, he add up one pillow above his dad. haha... They made me laughed till tears came out while playing online game..
Looks scary ya.. keke..

Missing her so much - My Dearest Ah Ma

After reading the sweet love story of my ah gong and ah ma written by my brother in his blog, I had a mixture of feelings. I cried again...

Beginning, I felt really sweet because ah gong really treated ah ma very good. He let me know what is real marriage. Marriage that needs patience, understanding, determination, sharing of course not lacking sincerity. Ah gong is the best of all men I knew. He has really good temper, even when he's angry, he will not yell, he will remind us not to do it calmly. Although Ah Ma is the strictest in family, but I know she loved me alot. I started staying with her after I was borned. I had so much so much time spent with her. EVen when I'm in Secondary School, I will still lie on her lap, accompanying her watching her fav Cantonese dramas. But, after she got really ill. I no longer have the chance to stick with her like past anymore. It really hurt me so much whenever she had to spend impt dates in hospital, suffering.

After she moved out from her own house and stayed with my youngest uncle, I still continue to visit her with my family. After I gave birth to Kieron, her health started to deteoriate. I tried to cheer her up by bringing Kieron to visit her and printing his photos out to let her see when she felt bored..

The bad day finally came. She had to get her brain operated, because there's a blood clot inside. That very very very sad day was deeply imprinted inside my heart. I had the responsibility of accompanying her and my ah gong that day. Because my uncles and aunties had to work, they only could come later. So I, as the eldest grandchild, I stayed there since morning.. Ah Ma lost conscious after the operation. She had complications and lung infections, worse she lost her memory, she had to stay in ICU.. Everything happened so quickly that I never had the chance to chat with her anymore. During that period of critical days, I only had 1 chance to hold her hand calling her, "Ah Ma, wo lai le, ni yi ding yao qi lai". & It was my last time.

Days later, she left us. I felt really really guilty. I couldn't see her for the last time. I had to look after Kieron, as he's less than 1yr old, the adults worried he may got virus from hospital. So I could only stay at home, crying and scolding ownself. I couldn't believe my ah ma really left me. I kept saying sorry, I really wish ah ma could hear me, knowing how much I really miss her.

During her funeral, I fell ill. Really ill. I had high fever of 40C and I had shivers every few hours. But, I don't want to stay at home. I wanted to accompany her the very last few days before she was cremeted. I felt really bad when I couldn't kneel down to pay her respect when the priest was reciting the prayers on the last night of the funeral. During the 3days of funeral, Dad told us not to cry, so as to let ah ma leave this world in peace. But, I couldn't tolerate anymore, all single memories of ah ma and I had spent together flashed back. I went to hide at the staircase and cried badly silently. In the end, Mum and Ser Seng found me, they consoled me, they said ah ma won't be happy to see me in tears.

Till today, it had been 4 years. I still wish to dream of Ah Ma. Whenever I feel sad or confused and troubled, I will talk to ah ma. Hoping her to give me advices like what she would usually do when she's still alive. But, I was just being silly, I know it won't happen. Just a way to console ownself.

Ah Ma, no matter where are you now, in heaven or reincarnated, you'll always be inside my heart, my memory, I love you so much and I miss you dearly...

Ah Gong, you have to be strong and healthy. You have to continue be our strong ah gong, be optimistic and we'll always be there for you. You have to live long to see our kids, our grandchildrens running around you...

I hope I can be stronger too.. I don't know why I will still cry whenever I think of Ah Ma. Whenever I'm lost, I will "shout" for ah ma inside my heart. I wish Ah Ma can bless me to be a stronger person emotionally...
Do cherish everyone around you when they are still alive, no matter how bad or how good they treat you. Their presence with you come with a word - fate. There's always a purpose they r here. There's never a thing gonna last forever. Love them, forgive and forget, take and share.

Kieron had Nose Infection

Mischievious Kieron fell ill but doesn't behave ill.. hehe.. He started running nose a couple days ago. Till Wednesday's morning, he had thick greenish mucus whenever he sneezed. Even after wiping off the mucus, more watery ones started to flow out...


It's time for the doctor especially now is the "peak season" of flu and HFMD going on.. He's rather happy about it, cos he could be excuse from school.. However, when we're on our way to the clinic, we met 2 of his classmates. They greeted him and asked how come he's in home attire. He started to be hesistant about whether to go to school. Too bad, I stopped him. He's unwell and should prevent spreading to the others.. Hmmz.. Not very good..

The clinic was so packed till we went back to my mum's house to have lunch before going back to the clinic to wait for our turn. It took about an hour+. He had a nose infection caused by allergy. Doc advised to avoid air conditioned places and try to keep as warm as possible. And he got 2 days of MC.


After getting his MC, we walked to his school which is just a couple of blocks away. His friends were so excited and curious upon seeing him outside the door. All asked why he didn't go to school. He's so cute, replied them in a happy tone, "I AM SICK!" He even told his Malay teacher, Mdm Siti in Mandarin, "I no need to go to school lei" Horrible, playful boy. haha..

We went up my mum house for a rest, only went home at night. He did not behave like a sick boy at all, he was so active till his elder uncle, Xiang, wanna "kill" him. Hehe.. He kept interrupt his nap. He jumped here and there, talked and played so much.


My brother went to do some marketing at Cold Storage, and came home to cook Macaroni Soup for all of us.. Quite a big change to see him cooking. My very first time seeing him cooking a decent meal but not Maggie Mee. Haha.. A good attempt.. More practices will make it perfect..

A sleepy, tired day.. My shoulders started to feel numb even if I use my fingernail to poke my flesh... How I wish I can have a proper sleep, even it's just 3hours. haha..

Kieron & Kayden at home(Part2)

Today is a HOT HOT day.. But a wet wet day during the evening too..
The weather just sooo horrible these few days.. But I have a weather forecast boy at home.. And he's Kayden.. Whenever it's going to rain, there's one thing he will be doing.. Spitting bubbled saliva, just like tadpole eggs gather on his lips.. & it's really accurate lor, whenever he does that, less than 1hr, it will start raining..


Today he's very alert.. Normally when we go to fetch Kieron off school, he will be sleeping inside the sarong I always carry over my body. But today he refused to sleep inside, and alert throughout till we reached home. Kieron's schmates parents commented he as a cute baby and resemblance his elder brother alot.. hehe.. (Same factory ma..)

Today cooked nasi lemak as dinner... I liked the sambal chilli, it's from SingLong brand, very fragrant and not too spicy till scary too.. I always fry the sambal with
ikan bilis, it's a great combination to go with coconut rice or even fried beehoon.. Tried a new type of luncheon meat, it's fish.. hmmz.. Not very good taste, it really taste like fish -- fishy..



Kayden loves music alot..

Today gonna sleep early, not going to wait for Kayden's last feed.. I'm collapsing soon, soooo tired........ Yawnz...

Kayden went for followup for his hernia

Went KKH for followup today, but today he's reviewed by a surgeon..

Overall, it was A good review.. The doctor said normally kids with umbilical hernia of protuding intestine less than 2cm will recover by age of 1. & Kayden's case is
about 1cm. So if things go on smoothly, his intestine will go back in place..


Of course, I still have to ensure that things go on right. I have to check on his belly button regularly. To ensure that the intestine is soft by pushing the belly button downwards.. If it turns hard and black, I have to send him to A&E immediately.

He has water retention near his testicles' area too.. But doctor said it's fine, that will recover by itself too.. Unless there's a big bulge beside his penis area, then again, A&E..


If nothing happens, he will just need to be back for another followup 1 month later... keke..

He grew well.. hehe..

Today he weighed 4.4kg and height was about 52cm..

After his checkup, time was still early. So I brought Kieron & Kayden up to my ex office for kpo session.. keke.. This time, Kayden was very alert. He tried to communicate with the aunts who surrounded him. He kicked, making noises, focus so hard on them.. & something unfair was he smiled back to some of them, when he mostly frowned in front of me.. Humpf.. hehe.. Mummy felt abit unbalanced..

Many of them commented he's a cute boy.. Very small.. Very active.. hehe.. I even tried to "throw" to some of them when they said he's cute...

Brothers -- Meant so much to me

After reading my brother's blog, felt abit emotional.. All kinds of past memories came back to me..

We really went through alot, as a family, as siblings, as individuals in order to have today.

My 1st younger brother is 3yrs younger than me, while my 2nd brother is 6yrs younger than me. Though there are age gaps between us, but I love them alot. Since small, I always give up things for them, don't want to make them unhappy. But, no matter how things I want it to be good, there are always moments of unhappiness..

During kids' time, we 3 used to play together, we had common interest of computer games. We talked about how to win the game and which game to play. Then we would have our arguements, over 1 computer.. We even came out a timetable stating a time slot for each to play. But we never follow it, so in the end, quarrels lor.. And I'm the most horrible one, the 1st 2 computers we had were placed in my room, and I blasted them at different period of time for playing Command & Conquer and Red Alert continously overnights.. haha..

During teenagers' time, we started to have alot of disagreements... Brothers were unhappy about the changes in me, I went steady and finally got married to a man who used to be a secret society member and rejecting quite a number of guys who were really good to me.. They were angry of me for making my parents sad when I walked a different path in my life. I chose the tough and harsh path. They believed I deserve a better life but as you know, good advice is sometimes being blocked by the ear and brain. hehe.. We would have quarrels more often, there was once my brother, Xiang was angry about me trying to advice him in changing his hot temper attitude, he tried to slap me, but was stopped by my mum.. I was heartbroken, I cried.. That very night, I was thinking, why we became like that when we were very united in the past... From then on, we started to have cold wars that lasted for years. We hardly shared thoughts and opinions be it good or bad...


But, those were the days... After I had my 1st child, after Xiang went NS, after Seng completed his secondary school.. We had more chats... We stopped those ignorant, selfish and harmful arguments. Happy moments came back to us.. Everytime my brothers shared what happened to them and their own thoughts with me, I felt satisfied and consoled. I felt happy that they trusted in me.. I love them so much that I'm willing to give up everything for them just like what I will do for my kids. As the elder sister of the 2 brothers, I have this strong responsibility of taking good care of them. I remembered I'm like a Big sister in school when my brothers came into the same school as me, I would try to act that "if you bully my brother, there's no happy day for u".. So fast, now the 3 of us are already 20s..

I always have this wish.. People who are really close to me and know me well will know how much I hope to have a big family. I missed days staying and playing around with my paternal aunts and uncles when we were small.. We're so united... But, people change every seconds, happy days don't last...

So what I can do now, is only wish that my family won't be broken no matter what will happen in future..

Its Weekend again..But..Nowhere to go..

Weekends.. Always so happy and sad to have them.. Happy cos I can take a rest from bringing my elder son to and back from school. Sad that I can't bring my kids out because Kayden is still small, premature baby tends to have weaker lungs and immunity system, so have to refrain from going to crowded places...


Again, we're at home lazing around.. As usual, pc game, psp, cartoons and scoldings to end a day. What to do.. Have to do household chores, tend kids, grumbling, staring at the ceiling.. hahaha.. A typical bored housewife..

Ever since I gave birth to my 2nd child,realised I was distant from the outside world so seriously till people around me told me news about the preschools may have to be close down due to the serious outbreak of HFMD (Hand Foot Mouth Disease). Then I knew that I'm too occupied with my 2 kids, I really have to keep myself updated no matter how busy and tired I am, before I really turn into a yellow faced auntie. haha..


Till now, after 2nd kid, there're still people mistook me as teenager. I wonder how will it be 1year later if I continue neglecting my ownself and the outside world.. A cavewoman? haha... I don't want ah..

Recently, Kieron been driving me crazy. After he got mixed with those more "active" friends in school, he turned rebellious and more mischievious. He will talk back and try to hit me if I "disobey" his wills. He becomes lazier, will want me to do things for him.. No way man! There's no such things at my house. So after my 3rd time
warning, he still refuses to obey. The harsh punishment is here, silence... He gets worried whenever I turn quiet or ignore him. He will then behave himself.. But kids.. They are always in 3min heat. After awhile, everything repeats. But, one thing I'm still glad that he's still bonded to me. We still have this mummy and son chat before we go to bed. We talk about his behaviour, the rights and wrongs, and asking about his opinions on some issues. This is a precious moment, because from this chat, I can tell him how I feel, and he's able to absorb better with a clear and calm mind.

From young, my family and I always have a open concept. We talk about everything. I remembered we 3 siblings used to gather in my parents' room at night, talked about the day's happenings, gossiped about daddy's frens and our frens, discussed about society issues and one that I liked most, ghost stories and true life stories told by my dad. But, as we get older, such nights are rare, we have our own lives.. However, we are still able to discuss things openly, just like good buddies. I love my family, though I have a noisy family. Although arguments and pickering noises always surround us, but this show we care about each other, if not, who will bother to voice out if no one care.


Family, it's not only a house with people who are related staying together. But, it's sharing, loving and caring, forgiving and forgetting mistakes for each other too.. It's the warmest place to be found on earth.

Lunch at Ichiban Sushi

Today, Kieron and I had a treat by my brother, Shi Xiang @ Causeway point Ichiban Sushi. Had chats with Xiang, it's always a nice moment having meals with family.
But, during our chatting, we're always interrupted by the monstrous Kieron. He either wanted to go pee pee or wanted to play psp and forgot about his food. If not, he's busy climbing up and down, over brother. As usual, he had his favourite tamago
and chawanmushi.. Eggs Eggs Eggs.. Never mind, eggs have protein that are great for children brains' development. We had a yummy yummy and filling lunch, abit bloated.. hehe.. Thanks to my brother...

After reaching home, had a headache... Too tired... Tried to catch a nap, but I
always fail.. At this moment, had to milk baby, change his nappy. At the other moment, Kieron be calling "Mummy, mummy..." Haiz..

Heard from Xiang, he had a friend who is same age as me, she has a kid too, but aged alot after the delivery. He advised her to take good care of herself. I am lucky that I still look small, doctors and outsiders still mistook me as teenager. But, I think very soon, I will be aging too.. No proper sleep, no proper diet. My brother still can be sarcastic, "It's great to be a man, don't have to look after kids". Humpf... Heartless man, hahaha...

Kayden's falling asleep, sitting on my lap.
It's a boring afternoon.. Cloudy with thunders and lightnings. Nothing to do, so took some photos of Kayden while Kieron busy with his PSP, new game - Xiaolin Showdown.


Talked about trip plans with brother earlier in the afternoon... HOPE I can go on trip to relax and shop this year.. It's alright for me to have 2 kids tag along.. As Long I CAN get out of this country, even it's for a day or two. haha..

The Missing Girl

On 25th Mar's evening, on the way to Vista Point to meet up with Ser Seng. At my house void deck, there was this little girl, around the age of 4 or 5, running about. At first, I thought it was just those little kids playing hide and seek. However, she started crying and yelling. & I realised she was alone. Just when she ran past us, I heard her yelling for "Nai Nai" (Grandma in Mandarin). So I got hold of her, asked her what happened.

She was wailing, couldn't figure out what exactly she was trying to say in the first place. She tried to run across the road, it was so dangerous. She was so helpless, so I held her hand tight, calmed her down by consoling her that I would bring her back to her grandma. After awhile, she managed to say out broken sentences like "Grandma at home", "At the park running", "I don't know how to go home".

Wow.. That's really a test.. I brought her to the park, asked her where's her grandma, did her grandma bring her to the park or she went alone. Then she finally talked clearly, "Small cousin brother and big cousin brother brought me here, then they ran away, I cannot find them, I cannot find grandma". Then she started crying again... Kieron who was very mischievious whenever we were out of house, he saw the sight of this little sister crying for grandma. He became real quiet. He looked at her, with stares of pitiness, fear and sadness. He tried to console her too, he told her "Don't cry, cannot cry, you cry we can't hear you talking. We will bring you home". I was so surprised he became so "mature".

After knowing it was her cousin who brought her to the park, I held her real tight, not only to give her security feeling but also to prevent her from running about in the carpark. I asked her where's and which was her cousin. Then came this little boy wearing school uniform, around Pri 5? He held the little girl shoulder, told her not to cry and asked where she went. When the little girl said it was her cousin brother. I tried to stop the cousin brother. He just kept walked away in quick paces. I got angry and shouted at him "Hey Boy, stop there and I want to talk to you" He did stop, I scolded him for throwing a little girl alone, it's so dangerous. He looked guilty, but speechless and walked away with the little girl.. Hope he "did" learn the lesson and take good care of the little girl.

After what happened, I had a mixture of feelings and thoughts. What will happen if the girl run too far away from the park as night is falling. What will happen if the cousin brother did not remember about his little girl till he reach home? What will happen if this little girl keep run about in the carpark? What will happen if there are bad guys around waiting for chance? Why adults nowadays let their kids go to park and playground alone, are modern kids really that independant?

However, it was considered a precious moment. Because somehow I felt happy for saving a little girl, and Kieron finally believed me that running about alone will get lost. hehe...

I just wish parents can be more responsible to their kids but not over protective, they still need chances to gain experiences, regardless of good or bad...

Kayden is 2 months old

Today, 24th March 08, Kayden is finally 2mths old...


He's very active today, awake most of the time.. Spend most of times with his brother today. Kieron just loves to tease him by touching his face or singing near to his ears.

Today I let Kayden try sleeping in the traditional sarong.. He seems to enjoy it
alot.. He did not show any sign of fear when I put him into the sarong. After a few times of shaking, he fell asleep, snoring.. haha..

Before that, Kieron became the 'guinea pig' of the sarong. Because my dad came to install the ceiling hook, to ensure that the hook is able to take heavy weight, I
asked Kieron to sit on the sarong first. & it became Kieron's swing instead, proving the hook is very stable and safe for usage. haha..

However, today is another tired day.. Didn't know why I seem to get more tired as each day passes by... & Kieron is getting more mischievious and cheeky too.. Just when I'm capturing Kayden's funny expressions with my camera, Kieron said he wanna use too.. So he took some of his own photos.. Hmmz.. Indeed, some are really funny. Then he started to ask me to help him with the photo taking while he posed around.. He's just always up to silly ideas...


Kayden is feeling bored while I'm uploading the photos into the laptop...


Kids.. Always expect the unexpected from them..