Boundary

Was feeling giddy in the morning, so tried to catch some short nap. But Kayden and Kieron were awake...

hehe.. So I did something... Kayden don't like to stay in the playpen for long. & letting him to play on the bed while I was napping was even dangerous, he may fall from the bed. So I laid the mattress next to my bed, & I "built" tall walls around the mattress. I moved all the cushions and pillows over. So that Kayden can play safe in the boundary, not worrying he may push the walls down even if he tries to crawl out. The boundary was a successful one..

But, I didn't catch any successful nap. haha.. The longest nap I had was only half an hour. Why? How come? Cos my dear Kieron was asking me permission every now and then, "Mummy, can I watch TV?" "Mummy, can I play computer games?" "Mummy, you see, I won! (His psp game)" "Mummy, you see my homework do correct anot?"

& Kieron made something on his own while I only need to give verbal "commands". It's for his teacher's Teacher Day gift. He wrote the card himself too. Though untidy but it's all about sincerity. keke..


I tried a new recipe using mix and match, trial and error method, potato balls..
Ingredients mashed potato, margarine, mixed vege. Delicious and healthy. hehe.. Kayden liked the potato too, everytime after he finished one mouth, he would scream in his walker, rushing over with his mouth wide open. hehe.. But to prevent allergy in this food testing stage, I only let him try a bit. keke..


Ahhhhhhhhhh... I shall go and catch some sleep now.. hehe.. Kayden was very tired today, he didn't sleep in the noon. He was screaming excitedly and "running" around in his walker, watching how the cats played.

Inner Thoughts

These few days, I came across a number of strangers praising me for being noble to give up my work, my freedom, my sleep for my 2 boys, to be able to handle them alone when I'm outside or at home. I felt touched, consoled and appreciated for sure. As my hardwork had been recognised.. But, somehow, I still feel emotional unbalanced. Cos they don't know the sad and bad sides of other things that had happened to me..

Some sees me as a superwoman. Some sees me as a silly woman. Some sees me as a young lady. Some sees me as a Obasan (Auntie).

Are these comments really so important that may affect my performance, a role as a mother? Yes, it did have some percentage of influence in me, but not too much. Maybe 10%? 40% from the support from my loved ones and close friends, another 50% from my own determination and confidence in taking good care of my kids.

People may think I'm always with my kids, my time are occupied by them. Yes, 24hours daily. But, I still have time for my own, no matter how tired I am, I will still make sure I have my private time daily, to keep myself updated and relaxed. Like now, I will spend a few hours after the boys go to bed doing my own things, be it watching TV, eating snacks, playing games or blogging, I'm glad to have these precious moments. The limited hours made me cherish the things I do and able to do.

Indeed, after being a full time housewife, I lost alot of things. Shopping freely, eating and relaxing in restaurants, drinking and dancing in discos, chatting and gossiping with friends. However, I gained alot at the same time too, my patience level increased, gaining more experiences from the downs I have to face for lesser household income, able to witness my kids's growth and progresses at different stages of their lives, able to correct and lead my kids' life path, able to cherish and be satisfied with the limited luxeries I'm able to have now, and also attaining higher level of inner self quality and cooking skills.

Everything, every matters has 2 sides. Just like a coin, there's head and tail. I like to think pros and cons everytime I do something. Hubby likes to say me for being a worrycat. Cos I can think so much, or can say I have a imaginative brain. Even before I fall asleep, I will think of the things I did for that day, and think of what I have to do the next day, also maybe imagine what will happen in a brand new day too. hehe.. I'm just using one kind of Mathematics - listing out the possibilities.

Many people think I have an easy life now, a housewife just to look after 2 kids and do some chores and cookings. Every family or everyone has its own set of problems. I won't go around saying what happen, cos the problem will still be there. I won't avoid cos it will still be there.. So just take it easy and face it calmly. I believe everything that happens around us has a meaning, it's just a matter of time and how open one's mind is to accept the consequence and moral of the happening.

SOme like to boast about problems, some like to grumble endlessly over small problem, some like to repeat how terrible the problem is but refuse to do anything to it, some like to treat the problem as invisible but get panic when it gets more serious, some like to face it bravely, some like to solve problem impulsively and neglect fine details of it. There are many solutions to all problems, one just has to make proper thinking and firm decision to it, and the problem will be gone in no time.

Like what my brother always say, some like to judge, some only care about what's happening outside, some care about the deepest part an issue. There are all kinds of people around us. Don't get too affected by the things they comment or do, cos you always have the choice of to accept or reject. If you are willing to accept, then accept it with a smile and give thanks. If you are rejecting, then do it will generosity and give thanks for opposites' concerns.

Feeling strange for why am I posting this instead of my usual kids's updates? hehe.. Nothing happen.. Just feel like saying out how I feel or what I have learnt so far.

My wishes :
1.) I wish My boys be healthy and happy, be safe and sound.
2.) I wish my family be united and bonded strongly forever.
3.) I wish I have some break other than a couple hours daily, maybe a short trip?
4.) I wish my friends still remember me as a happy go lucky crazy ger instead of a naggy, busy auntie.
5.) I wish to continue my studies if time and duty level permits.
6.) I wish everyone around me be happy, optimistic and healthy.

This is me.. Taken about 20years ago. hehe.. I just like to smile and laugh. Like what my boys like to do. Do you think Kieron looks like me when I'm small? keke..

Kieron's 1st School EXCURSION

It's not Kieron's first time to the zoo, but it's his very first time going to his fav place of interest -- ZOO -- with his frens n teachers.

He's so so so excited about the trip last night, while we're preparing his bag, he had so many questions "Will the teacher bring us to the zoo?" "Does the teacher know how to bring us there?" "Will the teacher bring us home?" "Will the teacher help us with the raincoat if it rain?" "Okay okay, the teacher will be there with us till you all go home, she will bring you all around the zoo, will help everyone of you to wear the raincoat properly, will bring you all to the toilet, give you all food. She will make sure you all won't go missing"

Haiz.. I didn't expect him to be even more "Loh Soh" than I do. haha..

He couldn't fall asleep in the end, blinking his eyes, staring at the ceiling, wondering... hehe.. He got up real early this morning, dressing up on his own. He even wore his shoes AROUND the house, worrying he may get late for the trip..

So I concluded, I have a kiasu son. hahaha..

They went off for their excursion at 1.30pm. The weather seemed fine, till 3+, it started to turn cloudy.. For their planned itinery, they're supposed to reach school at 4pm. In the end, we waited till 4.55pm. They went to watch Elephants' show and cos of the sudden heavy downpour, they came back late..
Kayden got sleepy and napped for half hour while waiting for his brother to come back..

As I expected, when Kieron saw me, he started his story... About the animals they saw, the things his frens did, the places his teachers brought him to. & he went on and on till the he fell asleep.. hehe.. At 11pm.

& best part was he said he wanted to go to Zoo again, but not with us, he wants to be with his teachers and friends. Sad... hahaha...

Kieron and his potato drawing at night... His fav hobby - drawing. hehe..

Kiki the kitten - She's a beauty (Backdated)

Taken by Joyce. She, Laoda and Cheemin came over to my house after their bowling session yesterday.. hehe.. I really loved their companions and missed those days we used to go out for dinner before I became a full time hswife.. Olden days.. hehe..

Kiki is really a beauty lor.. After seeing the pics Joyce had taken, she's just so demure.. But hor, actually she's very playful.. Whenever I washed my dishes, she would come and grab my feet, wanna me to play with her. keke..

Raining, drizzling, freezing...

It'd been raining for the past 2 days, I think non stop.. It's cold... & I starting having sinus and aching joints due to the coldness.. I wonder when will the sun come out bright and warm.. hehe..

Oh.. We are really confined due to the wet weather.. No outings, no shopping, not even vista point. Can say I'm really bored, almost bored to death.. Luckily, hubby brought us out for dinner just now.. Even just for that 1.5hrs, I'm soooo happy. hehe..

What to do when we're at home most of the time..? Other than chores and Tv, of course, it's PHOTO TAKING TIME!! hehe..

In the morning... ...


In the evening... ...

At night... ...

怕什么

可有想过为何我将蔡依林的《怕什么》做为背景歌曲？
那是因为这首歌的歌词服和了我现有的心情，或许也是我一直有的感觉。
每当我聆听时，回忆，甜蜜，快乐，悲伤等等都回到我脑海里，感触良多。

你也可以来看看歌词， 这词是不是对你来说也很贴近你的心。 。 。

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能感觉你手很暖和 能感觉你是特别的
当我的手被你牵着 在街头在风中放纵
随你到世界最尽头 随你山上去放烟火
当你唱着 生日快乐 我感动 你让我受宠

我不再怕什么 躲什么 我只想知道你在想什么
请贴近我的心 贴近我的耳朵
听你轻轻的 轻轻的 轻轻的说 到底我是你的什么
我不再怕什么 躲什么 （说爱我）
我只想知道你爱不爱我 （怕什么）
现在我安静的 贴在你的胸口
要你说 听你说 说爱我！

我肯定你是爱我的 我肯定你是认真的
你会爱我天长地久 全世界为我们的祝贺

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Backdated photos (12th Aug-19th Aug)

"I'm stressed"
Kayden trying to snatch the limelight while Kieron tried to do funny faces in front of the lenses.
Kieron's sunglasses, my mum got it from pasar malam. Too big for the boys. hehe..

Maomao got a boyfriend..

I was still wondering couple nights ago, why Maomao keeps want to go out at night recently.. Till last night, when I was refilling their food bowls.. I heard another cat's meow right below my kitchen.. As you see, I lived at 2nd floor, so the cat's sound was very clear and obvious.. But, Kiki and Maomao were with me.. SO who's that meowing??? & Maomao started meowing too, and wanted me to open the door for her..

She walked off without looking back at me, cos usually before she leaves the house, she will turn back, take a look at me, meowed (say byebye) at me then walk off.. She didn't come home at all.. But I could hear the cats meowing. She's around.. At first, I thought of following her downstairs, but it's already 1am+, the kids were asleep, I couldn't have a peace mind to go off just like that. So I thought, I shall c for it tomorrow..

I went to check the door at 3am and 6am. No signs of Maomao, but the cat food that I left outside had lessen, this showed she did came back, but just for the food... At 10am, just when I was about to shut the door as Kieron was going to school. WE saw a grey cat at the playground! It's a new cat!
We rushed down and was surprised to see Maomao standing side by side with the grey cat! Oh! Then I realised he's a male and he became Maomao's boyfriend!! No wonder, she'd been late nights out past few days.. He's shy to see us, at first, he was following closely behind Maomao. But when Maomao saw us, she came running towards us, wanna patpat.. But the male cat didn't follow, he just stood there looking at Maomao affectionately..
He's huge! Muscular! He looked Just so amazing!! He don't look like a stray cat at all.. I will go and find out on his breed. hehe..

I believe not long later, there may be a new batch of kittens. hehehe..

Now, it's already 11pm. Maomao had went out since 6pm, but not back yet till now. hahaha.. It's their dating time...

Kiki the kitten

Tonight I made an exception, as Kayden went to bed early, so I let Kiki play in the living room for half an hour...

We played the mices with her.. Wow.. She loves them.. Chasing, biting, catching, jumping, she tried all means to get them down. hehe.. Cute!!

Kayden is another animal lover in the house

Among the fishes, cats, dogs and birds Kayden had contact with, he loves most is the black ranchu goldfish I have at home.. He likes to watch it swimming and coming close to him.. He always gets so excited that as he places his hands on glass of the fish tank, he will start screaming and talking to the goldfish -- "I'm going to catch you one day!" haha..
He will give me such expression whenever I try to take him away from the fish tank -- "Why are you disturbing me?"

Busy.. But happy... hehe..

Monday -- Went library with a bad headache.. Came home continued with chores and duties.. Busy cos Kiki's able to find her way back to my house.. But playful kids "kidnapped" her in the evening at the playground, Maomao got so worried, came up and meowed meowed at me, wanting me to accompany her to find Kiki... Luckily, at midnight, Kiki came home. Maomao was so happy that she went licking her girl so much..

Tuesday -- Gonna have splendid steamboat at night. So made preparation for the steamboat ingredients - seafood, meat and finger food. What's the occasion? hehe.. Just got lazy to cook. So I just need to prepare the basic yummy Soup base with Pig's big bones and Chix stock. Running in n out of the kitchen, to keep Kayden companion and cleaning the ingredients. Kiki went missing again, that night, went down thrice with Maomao to walk around the void decks to look for her girl. Maomao went out midnight herself, by 2am, they came home together.. Finally!

Wednesday -- Tidying up house, cos "lovely" hubby messed up the living room after "doing up" his arowana's new home last night.. Lao Da and Joyce be coming over for a homecooked style dinner.. It's their first time eating my homecooked food. Very different from the parties we had in the past. Glad that they had a happy dinner. They did made some compliments. I really felt touched, cos for the 1st time, I felt so appreciated.. hehe.. My hubby and son are numbed to my cookings. hahahahhaha.. Funny Kayden even tried to snatch food from my plate.. Greedy little boy. hehe.. He's a bit grouchy cos of sleeping bug crawling up into his mind. He wanna play and sleep at the same time, in the end, he threw a little temper.


P/S: Oh yes! Lao Da! You thanked me for the food.. I forgot to thank you again for the gates. hehehe... Now hubby can't nag at me anymore. hehe.. When he first saw the gate, I asked how was it? He didn't grumble at all. hahaha.. Thanks for your great help!!

Laugh Laugh & Laugh. Laughter is the best medicine of all..

Peekaboo


Kayden trying to find Kieron who was hiding and reappearing behind the sofa.